"Mama goes crazy," I said, "That's how it always ends."
So, when does it end? I have a now 8 year old daughter and an almost 4 year old son. T is on track to leave for college in the fall of 2022. There are many days that end with a crazy mama -- it is hard to get through those witching hours of dinner prep, evening routine and bedtime without a little bit of head spinning -- and there are weeks and months that are a total blur lost to busy-ness. The phrase itself is now a good family joke, as well as a warning. If I tell the children, "Mama is going to go crazy...." they know they are pushing too far and better quit before they get in REAL trouble.
The end of the day? The end of an event? The end of their childhoods? The end of my life?
Maybe just the end of the moment. I do have real hope. As annoying as it is to hear much older women with grown children tell me, "Ohhhh, enjoy every minute! They are so precious and it goes by so fast," I do sense the truth and the meaning in those words. Already, my children's babyhoods are blurring and fading -- the ceaseless crying, the middle-of-the-night feedings, the awful diapers, the minivan load of things required to go anywhere (though I don't think I'll ever forget 9 months of throwing up for EACH pregnancy.) The sweet moments really are achieving a sharper focus. I believe I will get to a time (2022? 2026? 2030?) When I think, "Wow! That was fast! How did we get here?" Like my mom, I will believe that grandchildren are twice as fun, even if they are twice as expensive.
Right now, though, I'm going to go pray for bedtime.
7 comments:
Hey, you should post more!
I want children.
BTM - thanks for stopping by. I did want the children, I'm glad I have them, I love them a lot, I like them most of the time -- and they are still little sinners who know *exactly* how to push their parents buttons.
John - as soon as I get a few free minutes, I do have a post in my head. But my husband has been really busy lately and child-free computer time is hard to come by!
Ooh! Someone else to read! :)
I adore your children but I am still very much in the stage of life where I am very glad I don't have any of my own (yet).
I also told most of my coworkers and a couple of my friends that you bought books I recommended. That made my day.
And I looked at another residence near yours yesterday, about a block away. I don't think I'm going to end up there, though... it's looking like a mile and a half away. But nothing is for sure yet. Hunting for housing is exhausting.
Hey Jen!
I'm glad you started a blog...I like to read your writing. It's very entertaining. Hope you find time to update it often!
Carla -- I just finished the Katherine book as my beach read -- I *really* liked it -- there were so many true moments. And I'm glad I don't have to be a teenager again. I read it at the beach because my BFF & family are here with us -- and her adorable blonde 3 year old is a Katherine.
Waving to Olivia, as well. :)
this is so so true.
i hope your husband will make sure you have more computer time soon.
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